Well I got through last night, usually Wednesday at 5 o'clock my son gets picked up by his dad ( we are divorced ) and I crack open the wine as my little cherub is walking out the front door..........how awful is that, actually it just confirms that I do have issues otherwise why would I have to wait until they have left.......?
I'm really bloody struggling this eve though and if I'm honest it's because I'm bored, wine seemed to take the edge of the day to day grind but is that really true or am I bullshitting myself? I know one thing for certain I'm shattered, I haven't had a decent nights sleep since I stopped the sauce, although that is not strictly true........let me rephrase, I have not been able to get to sleep easily ( or should I say 'pass out' ) , however, when I do eventually get to sleep I'm sleeping a real, deep and natural slumber, I just need a bit more. There are also no hot sweats, overheating, even though it is not overly warm and I'm not waking up with a mouth as dry as a badgers arse! God I hate that dehydrated, panicky morning thirst when I've poured pints of water down my throat until my stomach could take no more and still I didnt need to pee until lunchtime, my poor poor kidneys. Well this blogging malarkey is doing its job as ive just talked my way through day 4! 😄